I have five and a half weeks left of school, and six weeks left in Arkansas. Not much has changed since my last post. This year has been so very stable compared to last year — that’s why I haven’t posted a lot.
I’m leaving. My town is polluted and I can’t afford to continue living so far away from my family, in such an isolated place. Plane tickets cost money. I’m really sad at the prospect of leaving my kids. I don’t just want to be one more person in a line of people that come and go from their lives. I know I can keep in touch, but it’s not the same as being here.
My plan for next year seems to change weekly. Right now it’s to move back to California and find a teaching job and cheap place to live. As much as teaching wears me out, and as messed-up as the education system is, I am supposed to be a teacher. I want to continue teaching.
If I can’t find a full-time teaching position, I’ll probably end up subbing & working at a restaurant again, which doesn’t sound so bad.
I’m not allowing myself to think too much during this time of transition. I was just looking back at my posts from April of 2011 and marveling at how much everything has changed.
I’ll post when I have a concrete plan for next year, and when I have a more coherent opinion about this whole experience. Right now, I’m just trying to enjoy the time I have left.